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Oscar, perfect English cocker spaniel (C)
by Natalia

If only…

Every action has its reasons, but some need time to be understood… Last night I was standing in the garden gazing at the dark endlessness above me. The Sirius was as bright as ever. I was waiting for the boys to finish their night time routine, but my mind wandered off thinking of the boy I lost…

Suddenly I realised why I started this blog and why it helped me so much. I could have written a journal, yet I chose to trust my thoughts to the world wide web. Somehow sending these posts into the vast nothingness felt like I could, time and time again, send a message to my baby, his soul… resting and waiting for me somewhere on the other side of the Universe.

I miss him. So much. Every day of my life. The sunny days. The dark days. And every one of those days I think of how wonderful it would be just to have Oscar here with me, with us. And how much he would love the house, the fields and the boys. And how happy I would be just to have him near… even for a moment.

We had every chance, all the time and so much left of the future to live happily ever after. If only…

 

 

by Natalia

Perfect cocker spaniel becomes Amazon Bestseller

It still feels surreal to process but Perfect cocker spaniel became the best selling book about English cockers on Amazon. And I confess I wasn’t ready for it. Seeing the word “bestseller” next to my book somehow unearthed all the emotions and tears I’ve carried inside. The book was never meant to be written for profits or fame. I simply wanted to carry the memory of Oscar into the future… Now I feel that I’ve made him proud.

Fred, chocolate and tan English cocker spaniel puppy posing in a wool scarf / Perfect cocker spaniel book and dog blog / cocker puppy tips, advice, how to hand-strip cocker spaniel, cocker spaniel diet, training, best foods (C) Natalia Ashton
by Natalia

Fred. In a scarf.

It’s been a while since I’ve written about the boys. So today is all about Fred. In a scarf.

I believe this sort of diary post isn’t something of public interest, but I love this photo so much and I will never forget how we took it.

Initially, I wanted to photograph them together. But Fred, who has never worn any fashion gear before, really wanted a portrait. I wrapped him in my scarf thinking that the boy will protest or run away to play with it.

I was wrong. Fred was a pro! I think he actually felt proud sitting and posing for me. The camera clicked and clicked and clicked, but my beautiful spaniel stayed there motionless until I was happy with the shot.

He is fabulous. Just fabulous. And I love him to bits.

 

Photo credit: Fred photographed by me